These three words always get me upset, but to an extent it is true, so I can’t complain.
My mother always told me the exact words every time I am making my hair and complaining that it hurt; she would “Beauty is pain”, but then who beauty help. So no matter the tears, I was never allowed to cut my hair.
But what if I don’t want to be beautiful? What is so wrong with looking ugly. My skull hurts from this hair, but I look so pretty every time I check the mirror, so I always tell myself, “three more days and the pain will be all over”.
The crazy thing it always did, but recently I am tired, not only of the pain but just the thoughts of making it. All I need is ten wigs, different colours and styles and I’ll cut my hair.
When I was little, my mother always said cutting my hair as a girl wasn’t good; she would tell some stories and say a few things and boom, I wouldn’t want to cut my hair again, mothers jazz.
Funny thing, now I’m older, once I complained about my hair she would be willing even to help me cut it, the irony right.
Don’t look at me like something is wrong with me. I have a tender scalp, only those that have the same scalp as me will understand. When I am relaxing my hair, I can’t stay up to 5minutes (please tell me I am not the only one). I hardly change the person making my hair because of the pain and they are used to me, once the making process begins, I can cry. Yeah, it’s that bad.
Now you may wonder why I can’t barb my hair and relieve myself from this stress once and for all, well so many reasons are holding me down;
1. Nigeria’s heat (if you live in this country, you can relate)
I doubt I’ll carry my cut hair out due to some personal reasons, so I’ll have to wear a wig and trust me when I say this country sun isn’t playing.
2. Lol, I don’t even have the wigs.
Currently, I have one, but I don’t want to wear one throughout my life until my wardrobe is blessed with two or more wigs.
3. Lowkey, I love braids.
Yes, I love the fact you can do any style when it comes to braids and their low budget.
4. This will sound silly, but I might look ugly.
Yes, I am human and have some insecurities that I am still dealing with, so yes, I don’t want to.
I tried going natural though, and well, let’s say it didn’t work out for me. Lol.
So if I ever cut my hair in the future, don’t worry honeybuns, I will surely gist you about it.